Peace vs. Calm.

"our name is our virtue"

I have been pondering on that quote for a while. Names, check yours out because it probably has a meaning. My name means peace. I have kind of known that for a while because my name is Olivia like "olive branch" which is a sign of peace. So I started thinking about peace, and at first thought you probably couldnt think of a word that less describes me. I am high-energy all the time, and while I do desire world peace, I am not what one would think of as peaceful to be around. However thinking on what the word peace means to me, I find it has nothing to do with a persons energy level, and everything to do with how you feel about yourself. You have to feel at home with yourself, you have to be at peace with yourself, you have to love yourself. So with my new found virtue I walk onward, seeking inner peace with myself, then allowing it to radiate into other people. We all deserve to love ourselves, everying no matter what, you will never spend more time with someone than you spend with yourself. So become at peace with yourself, your faults, your strengths your ever changing self. Accept everything you feel, are and want to be. I am a firm believer that you cannot love anyone until you love yourself. So excercise your self love by stopping negative self talk. Your amazing, I'm amazing and until we all realize this fact about every human being an that planet including ourselves, peace is not possible. I wish you peace and love.

We were made to feel the rain.

We were made to feel the rain
We were made to drink the sea
We were made to live together
In peace and harmony

We weren't made to put factories up
And put smoke in the sky
We were made to feel the earth
With fresh air drifting by

We were made to dance and made to sing
But in the grand design
There certainly were no phones to ring
Or ways to catch the "time"

We were made to feel the dirt
To gaze up at the stars
To one day realize
That all the world is ours

And though we buy and sell it
It still would seem to me
Quite uncomprehensible
How one could "own" a tree

We were made to share this gift
The earth that where we all live
So why would we want to recieve
More that we want to give

We were made to love
To put it simpily
To know the universe is intertwined
To taste infinity

life is good.

How many times have your heard this sentence: life is good. Its on t-shirts, coffee mugs, bumper stickers, facebook statuses, hats and several other assorted items. So we surround ourselves with this wonderous idea and then we don't act like it. Instead of using this as a healthy reminder and do not actually live it out. Life is good. Such as short sentence, but one of the absolute truest. I can't stress enough how good it feels to absolutely believe it. Now I'm not saying I walk and never forget how beautiful life is, but goodness I would like to. I get tastes of it though. When I really think how wonderful everything is. How we can CHOOSE this outlook, just like you can choose to be in a bad mood. It's that easy, choose to be happy. Even if time rough, you can still CHOOSE to look at them happily. Do what makes you happy. Have faith in yourself and your intuition, and be accepting of yourself and the fact that experience molds you and that you will never be the exact same person you were yesterday. Rejoice in your everchanging self! Every second is a fresh start, so never feel like your failing, because you have never done anything as the exact person you are at that second. Its better to just enjoy the ride. Because it is a good ride, not like one of those that makes you feel sick, its one of those rides you would wait in life forever for, and here is the catch, there is no line, your already on the awesome ride that is life, existence, connecting to everything and hopefully finding love in everything. Our fellow travelers in humanity whom we should love with all our hearts. Take it all in. Look around, open your eyes and heart and realize we are only made to love. EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY. Think of the universe as on your side and that its all going to be okay, because it is. Things that seem like the world, will eventually become a funny memory. Look around and radiate the light you have.

an attitude of gratitude

I am so overwhelmingly blessed. I have gratitude flowing from my being right now and I need to get it down on paper, or in this case on screen. I am truely blessed with everything that has happened in my life. I am crazy grateful for my life, my family, my friends, my enemys and everyone and everything that has ever influenced me in the smallest of ways. "they shaped my life, they make me love who I am today".

stop judging, yes I'm talking to everyone, and myself

Lately I have been trying to not judge people, the reason, its not our place as humans to judge eachother. I think the reason we judge is because we judge what we dont do. We judge other people for doing something that we ourselves would not, because we didnt have the experiece that led us there. So how can we judge? If there is something I have learned about people its that we all have baggage, and I'm not talking a small hand purse, I'm talking like five suitcases no matter who you are. We then cannot judge others, because we will never know what we would have done in their place, or how we would act toward people. I recently read about an excercise that you should do when you start judging someone. Try to find out what you dont like about the person, the character trait not the act, and then find it in yourself. Usually the traits we dislike about others we can find some what in ourselves. It makes it alot easier to dislike someone when we can relate them to ourselves. I'm not by any means saying I dont judge people, because I would be lying. For some reason its a natural thing for humans to do, but it is also a road bump to happiness, and I'm not sure about ya'll but whenever I talk about someone or think negatively about somebody, I feel awful when I really think about it. Another thing that helps me is to think of the persons family. They have a family that loves them. I cannot stand the thought of anyone even thinking negatively about a member of my family, so thats usually what does it for me. It's something to work at, because if we can get over all the little things and just spread the love, we'll all enjoy life much more.

just because I'm wondering, doesn't mean I'm lost

I don't want an idea or thought or anything to define me. We are constantly changing. Experience molds us every moment, to make us a different person than who we were before. Therefore it only makes sense to take in everything and use it to make up what you think. It is wrong to close your mind because of the past, because you are not who you are. I have also realized judging is wrong, but its something we all do. And whether its out loud or in our heads we all do it. I'm trying to cut down on that, just because I don't think its our place as humans to judge eachother. Back to the open mind thing though, dont close your mind because of what you believed in the past, because your not the same person. Open yourself to yourself, let yourself be what it wants to be. Don't push away change, rather welcome it with open arms. Love yourself every second, and never forget you have the right to change.

"I won't worry my life away."



I needed to be told this right now. It is way to easy to get caught up in life and forget to live. There is so much stress that is put on us by the world, why do we choose to only make it worse. I know in my case at least that once I discover a problem, I cannot stop thinking about it until it is solved. I try and  try and I tell myself, well you can't do anything about it at 2 in the morning, but no matter what I cannot stop thinking about it. I am putting it on myself. Worrying does no good, and honestly that is one of the biggest lesssons I have been trying to teach myself for a very long time. I worry, alot. I have trouble sometimes remembering that something is not everything. When I am under stress I focus only on the stress, and then come to realize later that it really wasnt that big of a deal at all. I think this is somewhat common. The inability to see past what is right in front of you, and view everything as a whole. Even if that one thing is a huge thing, worrying will not do anything. Its only natural to worry, I know that, but it is a total pain when you cannot stop thinking about it, or being upset about it. We run ourselves into these little routines, that we think we have to do. The entire world no a days never stops. Instant message, e-mail, facebook, it never stops. You cant catch a break. You move from one thing to the next. In the old days letters took days to deliver and respond to, now its a click away. School, work, drama are all stresses that drive us deeper and deeper in to this constant battle against time. Here stands the question, when do you get to just enjoy life. Well the modern world doesnt do a good job of telling you its okay t just slow down for a second. Coping with the stress is the hardest for me by far. I am not great under stress, simply because I cannot look past it and see all the good things in life. We have to stop stressing about nothing, or what will be nothing a week from now. Stop worrying and enjoying now. Do what you can, then just leave it. Regret wont help, worrying wont help, just keep moving along, enjoying and living. Now this is far far easier said than done, but if it is achieved, I believe it is the ultimate answer to stress. Just remembering that it is not everything. Because "does it make sense not to live for fun?" No it does not. Think about that and  "dont worry your life away". When you look at your life, your not going to think about the paper you didnt turn in in college, or the spelling test you failed in third grade, and though they were everything at the time, in the grand scheme of things its not important.

The only thing that is important is enjoying your life. Because even if you are a perfect student or worker because you let stress take over, and work all day, are you really happy? Does being perfect at everything but living life to the fullest matter. Fulfillment comes in happiness and to be happy we must make the choice to be happy. When we look at being happy as our goal, everything else is not the most important thing anymore.This is not to say we should all neglect our responsibilities, just dont let them become your life! Do what makes you happy, because it is honestly all that really matters.

"Don't worry, be happy."